#californiasisterlove. Thanks @rikinicole for this adorable picture.

#californiasisterlove. Thanks @rikinicole for this adorable picture.

Just went #beastmode #af with @mattyshoots. Since beginning training 10 months ago, I’ve lost 2lbs of fat, gained 4.5 lbs muscle, and brought my body fat from a high 31 to 27 percent. My goal is 25 percent by May 1. #shreddingforthewedding

Just went #beastmode #af with @mattyshoots. Since beginning training 10 months ago, I’ve lost 2lbs of fat, gained 4.5 lbs muscle, and brought my body fat from a high 31 to 27 percent. My goal is 25 percent by May 1. #shreddingforthewedding

My three baby bugs 🐛🐞🐞 
@mattyshoots

My three baby bugs 🐛🐞🐞
@mattyshoots

Paying for my makeup trial = do it for the bridal shower. I’m not used to so much makeup but I could totally get used to it!

Paying for my makeup trial = do it for the bridal shower. I’m not used to so much makeup but I could totally get used to it!

Oh hey freaks.

Oh hey freaks.

I woke up to this gift from “The Boys”. My distraction while @mattyshoots  is at his Bachelor Party this weekend! 😍😍😍. Thank you, loves. @a_smith33; cc:rest of crew

I woke up to this gift from “The Boys”. My distraction while @mattyshoots is at his Bachelor Party this weekend! 😍😍😍. Thank you, loves. @a_smith33; cc:rest of crew

It’s when I see details that I miss her most. The necklace, the rings. She is saying a speech for her mom’s 75th, which is written on the back of a piece of mail. You’ll notice if you look closely; that is classic Mimi style. Organized in her own crazy way. And at 55-years-old, how did she have that natural cleavage? That pretty hair was special, considering it’s what was left after brain surgery. And that skin made younger women jealous, especially one of our neighbors.

I’ll be honest. I miss her more now . I long for her all the time. And, on a rare occasion, I pick up my phone to call her. People ask if it gets easier. It gets easier to accept my sad emotions and allow myself to grieve. It gets easier to admit that I am not mad at her, that I love her so much.

Three years ago today, at a time that we will never know, she died in her bed. She didn’t deserve that. She does, however, deserve the love we,her loved ones, still have for her, and will have for her, always.

It’s when I see details that I miss her most. The necklace, the rings. She is saying a speech for her mom’s 75th, which is written on the back of a piece of mail. You’ll notice if you look closely; that is classic Mimi style. Organized in her own crazy way. And at 55-years-old, how did she have that natural cleavage? That pretty hair was special, considering it’s what was left after brain surgery. And that skin made younger women jealous, especially one of our neighbors.

I’ll be honest. I miss her more now . I long for her all the time. And, on a rare occasion, I pick up my phone to call her. People ask if it gets easier. It gets easier to accept my sad emotions and allow myself to grieve. It gets easier to admit that I am not mad at her, that I love her so much.

Three years ago today, at a time that we will never know, she died in her bed. She didn’t deserve that. She does, however, deserve the love we,her loved ones, still have for her, and will have for her, always.

Get out of town with your morning cuteness.

Get out of town with your morning cuteness.