Chemo day. She was shaking and extremely nervous. Poor buddy. I felt so bad leaving her. Lots of treats later. #supporttheshaina
Thank you to all of our loving friends and family who came over to #supporttheshaina! You guys made it possible to cover three of her treatments. That’s a big deal! I hope everyone enjoys their raffle prizes.
Whenever I think of the bad things life has handed us, I can’t even focus on that because we have so many good and loving people to support is without asking for anything in return. Our family is made from both blood and bonds. I love our huge modern family.
I have three rescue dogs that I’ve adopted over the course of 11 years. This is Shaina, my oldest. I originally chose to adopt instead of to buy from a pet shop when I was. 17. I’d just lost my father to heart disease, and has a desire to fill a void by taking care of a dog who truly needed a home, and who might be euthanized otherwise. I went to the South Los Angeles pound to look for a smaller dog, but then I saw her. She was skinny with a cut on her ear, but so full of energy and smart. She had her long nails wrapped around the cage’s chain-linked fence door and was shaking it, making noise to get my attention. The friend I was with said “Look at that one. She’s smart!” I asked an employee if I could meet her. She took Shaina out from her pen. I crouched down to say hi. Shaina put her two front paws on my knees and licked my face. I’ve been in love since. The day I brought Shaina home, I found out that she was on the high kill list. She would have been euthanized the next day.
My husband and I have three rescues as of now: Shaina, Feliz, and Buddha. Each of them drives us crazy, but are amazing in their own way. Shaina knows how to open the refrigerator and is infamous for taking an afternoon snack; she’s gotten through many baby locks to do so. We wouldn’t trade their love for anything! Shaina is currently under treatment for lymphoma. She is doing great and we are even having a FUNdraiser for her this coming weekend. Rescue dogs are the best! #PaintMyRescuePet @ethereal_paint @rescuepetsofinstagram
We always do a pre-chemo pic. I like taking these pictures because it really shows her improvement on the chemo, and reminds me that I am doing the right thing for my dog. She is nervous in this picture, and does not like when I leave her there, but they are so nice at the Veterinary Cancer Center of Los Angeles. Instead of holding them down to put the chemo injection in, they lay with them on a bed. So Shaina just thinks that she is cuddling. How cute is that?
Tonight, we went to a 9/11 memorial. It felt right to be there. It felt right to do something. This woman sang, people spoke, and people prayed. They gave is candles. There were beautiful stories. I spoke about my husband and relatives directly impacted. Thank you to the Friend family for this tradition. Everyday, I am reminded that people are good. @teresa_carmen @tamaranelson @1neenster @papi_of_2
There’s so much sad, scary stuff going on in this world - but everyday I receive a reminder that people are good. @shimarazipour @bgkellie and @dcollins310 I’m especially thinking of your recent generosity. Everyday, someone makes it worth it.
Sometimes I look back at pictures of myself, like this one. I feel ashamed because all I could do was focus on my flaws back then. I remember taking the picture and finding things wrong with it. I selfied myself over and over. I focused on my skin, my brows, and my eyes. I wanted them to be different. Now, three years later, all I see is a gorgeous 26-year-old.
Shame on me for always focusing on the flaws, the weight, the imperfections. Shame on me back then.
And sometimes, shame on me now.
Always love your present self. If you don’t, you will miss out. You will look back one say and say, “Gosh, I was so «insert compliment adjective». Why didn’t I see it back then?”
Don’t wait for your future self to catch up and appreciate who you are now.
I’m talking to all of you, but I am also taking to me.